Apathy Redux

Here we are just past 100 days of the new Prez's term.


Things are getting better
The other side is still hyper-critizing every single thing...
in hugely negative terms, and yet offering no viable solutions of their own
except for the usual shit..

All the work that the government is doing won't mean squat if the banks don't start moving money...we can't help the auto industry bankrupcy if we can't get car loans and if our cc interest rates keep escalating!

Their offerings are down right scary, and the moderate ones are deserting
the ship. What a strange time. The world must think we're nuts..squabling within our ranks like children.

Then on top of it ..swine flu...
in the world and earthquakes in Calif.

In my house we have been really really really working hard to get our water usage down..we just got a new bill..and it's up 100!!!
Now it's down 60% from last year at this time..but JEEEZ...the harder we try to save the more our money doesn't go anywhere..

I think we all need to fasten our seatbelts and hang on it's gonna be a rough ride this summer.

this rant is over!

Dare we hope?

Here we are...
Less than a week into a new Presidency and so far Prez Obama has signed legislation to:

1. Repeal a ban on giving US funds to off shore organizations (like reproductive counseling in Africa) who offer abortion as an
alternative

2. Require the shut down of Guantanamo Bay, and other secret prisons on foreign shores

3. Ban the use of torture ("enhanced interrogation methods" HAH) by our military, by the CIA and other Black Ops Groups

4. Removed EPA restrictions allowing the states to pursue more stringent standards for fuel efficiency and emissions control

Each day seems to bring the start of another campaign promise fulfilled.

Wow..Dare we hope? Dare we hope that health is on the way? Dare we hope that there is a light at the end of the tunnel?

The Prez is going to have private meetings with the Senate Republicans and the House Republicans to ask them this:
What is it going to take to get you to sign off on this economic stimulus package?

How direct! How honest! How refreshing!

It's gonna scare the shit out of them!

I say "Bring it on!"

and yes, I'm daring to hope...for a future for me and my loved ones.

Life Goes On

So,

On the eve of the Inauguration my room mate said that someone he works with "can't wait for Obama to screw up so he can say "I told you so" "

It makes me so sad. Here we are..the economy a mess after 8 years of what is going to shake out as the worst president in the history of the office..and people are HOPING that he fails!

GET REAL PEOPLE.....if he fails THERE WON'T BE MUCH OF AMERICA LEFT!! There won't be money to buy homes, there won't be jobs for us and for our kids!! What is with these fucking people???

I have another friend who really believes that Obama's plans for the economy mean that "they" will reach into his personal bank accounts and take money away from him. He is one of those people who had himself convinced that HE was part of that 250k+ income that Obama hopes to tax more fairly. It has never made sense to me that the more you made the less you paid.

Money has not been moving around down here where I live in a long long time. I'm hopeful that Obama can start this on the mend.

As I get ready to start school..I"m hoping that he is successful in his plan because then there will be student loan money, maybe some grant money for me..Grad school is expensive!

I'm glad that I have the opportunity to witness my gay friends get married, and this inaguration..well..it's history. I am sad that yet again a viable, dynamic, qualified woman had to step aside for a man..but our day will come.

til next time
P-

JEEZ this is getting to be a habit!

Well...another year has gone by..so much for resolving to keep better journaling.

Ok, I'll stop beating myself up now..

I'll beat up on the country and on the pseudo liberals here in California.

I'm still in stunned disbelief that greed has been so rampant as to bring our national economy to near collapse. What were we doing as the mechanisms of oversight failed miserably. We were busy spending money that did not exist!

And what were we doing as Prop 8 failed? The marriages of my loved ones are in jeopardy! What was I doing? I was assuming that reason and common sense would prevail.

Silly me.

My TS friend are having some space. It's a good thing. She needs the world to turn around her right now..and honestly I need the world to turn around me! As I begin my Grad School time..I'm happy and content to focus on how the heck I"m gonna pay for it and how I'm gonna get the work done while still working 40 hours per week.

If I build it, they will come..I know I can do this. One foot in front of the other, one step at a time, one day at a time..it WILL happen.

Happy New Year

Well....

I certainly dropped the ball didn't I?

So this year..I will attempt to keep my journal more up to date. I guess it is a matter of wondering what is the point?

So many keep blogs..but the world turns to shit. People "talk" at each other online but do they listen? Do they really hear the pains and joys of others? Are we so isolated in our individuality that we don't know how to empathicize anymore?

I'm concerned about all the 20-30 year olds who are more concerned with text messaging each other and im and BLOGing than they are with their personal liberties disappearing bit by bit.

So, here's my opinion for Jan 2007.

Off to a down type of start..maybe it will get better ...

Penny

What's Goin on Here part 4

You know I"m ok with knowing someone who is transitioning most of the time. But when I hear on the news about the
latest hate crime perpetrated against a gay or lesbian person or a TS I get so scared for my friend.

These civilized males..who run the country and tell us women types how we shall be..they KILL people they don't like, or are threatened by.

I really want to be able to protect my friend, but I know that sooner or later most likely something bad will happen to him.

When we're in public places he gets "read" as female all the time. When he goes into the men's room, I worry if he takes along time to come out. I start to plan what I will do if he does not show up soon.

What is with that??? Why do you straight all powerful men have to try to destroy anything that is different from you? Why is the immediate tendency toward violence??? Are you latent? Are you burying your true selves??

This is such a wierd place to be in.

Penny

What's goin on here part 3

Sooo

The next layer of knowledge that I've stumbled over is that here in Southern California there are but a handfull of therapists who are trained or interested in helping TS people, and their SO's..well shit who cares about them? The Answer is NOBODY!

Yes folks, in this state of tree huggers and self help groups..these people are isolated, alone and ashamed. This was the impetus for the direction change in my education..see my bio blub on this page.

I met a wonderful TS woman recently who, two days before our meeting, had just received legal paperwork that her ex in-laws, 4 states away, are going to sue to take full custody of her children and then prohibit them from seeing her ever again.

What's the deal here? Have these assholes never heard the axiom: "Live and let live"? My friend is not even in the state. The children are with the grandparents by arrangement after the death of their mom, they are teenagers and its in their best interest to not be uprooted. My friend left for California for employment purposes. The inlaws have to reach into her life and fuck with her by remote control. I wonder what excuse they will give God when he asks them what the fuck this was about?

So when I met my friend, she was shattered, yet resigned..because you see this sort of treatment is typical.

We should be ashamed of ourselves.

Penny